Feeling out of alignment with yourself is an extraordinarily tough place to be. If you've ever found yourself in this space, you know the struggle that comes with it. Personally, I've dealt with doubt, fear, confusion, depression & anxiety, just to name a few. Carrying around those feelings made life feel very blurry and I often doubted my purpose. Going forward, I am embracing the past uncertainty and choosing to believe that there is purpose in struggle and that maybe, my setback was actually a setup to help women in a deeper, more profound way.

As a makeup artist, I’ve always been inspired to help women transform through beauty but, something about my personal journey over the past two years has stirred my soul to be more authentic and open rather than perfectly polished.

That said, I've chosen to frame 2020 around a word that represents a state of being I aspire to as well as one that seems to keep popping up for me (which I'll take as a nod from the universe). Clarity is my guiding word for the year and I am determined to create this year with that at the center. 

Have you chosen your word?
What do you want your life to look like this year and how do you need to show up for yourself so you can have CLARITY on your life’s vision?
Once you declare it, watch how it manifests in your daily life.

This might be TMI but, then again, you may need to read it. 

Today was my second colonoscopy in six weeks. I’m 48 with a family history of various cancers and was told at a well visit in March that it was time to schedule this dreaded test based on those factors. I felt fine so naturally, I filed it in my mental notes (IN THE FURTHEST FILE POSSIBLE) as something to get to eventually. We all know how that goes, right?

Over the summer, I had a first time bout of diverticulitis that landed me in the ER. The follow up to that was to schedule a colonoscopy (ok Universe, I see what you're doing) which I finally got around to doing in late September. Turns out, some polyps needed to be removed.  My doctor also informed me that while they were benign, they were the type to cause cancer if ignored. Additionally, there was another more complicated polyp that would require a specialist to remove. That was today.

Looking back, I’m grateful for my summertime ER visit because had that not happened, chances are I may not have scheduled a colonoscopy and what I didn’t know could’ve really hurt me. 

Friends, is there an appointment you’ve been putting off because you feel fine or maybe you’re nervous, embarrassed or afraid or perhaps you’re telling yourself a story about not having time? Love yourself enough to schedule it. You just might be saving your own life.